These quiet adventures

I got my first job offer for a volunteer position out in Yosemite National Park tracking chipmunks and while I’m happy about it I”m also scared shitless at the prospect of being so far away and so in the middle of no where. And so, I don’t know what to do.

Good things

• I ran a half marathon in under two hours (almost barfed at the end).
• Presented my SIP and actually felt good about it (I never feel good about presentations).
• I have two job interviews tomorrow, one for a field job at Yosemite.

Bad things

• One of those jobs is a volunteer position and the other has a mandatory May start date.
• I don’t know where I’m living in about two months.

It’s always the weekends that are the nicest out that I have the most to do. Can’t believe it’s already fifth week and that whole SIP presentation thing is coming up in one week exactly to the hour. Horribleness.

Job applications take so stupidly long. 

• If I don’t get a biology job, I’d be happy being a baker.
• Really I should look for jobs as a baker.
• Caffeine is great, and I haven’t had it for week, and today I’ve had a bunch, so now I’m wide awake.
• Art history is a new subject so I’m just going to go ahead and assume that class will be interesting but not understandable.
• I’m not going to get a job I want. That’s how it goes.

Job interview tomorrow and I’m trying to prep, but figuring out what I can say about myself in a positive light is not something I’m all that successful at. But, I’m also pretty bad at making shit up as I go so that’s not gonna happen either. Yay jobz.

I’d like to:

• run for hours and not have to worry about the things I need to do
• cook something that takes hours
• bake a carrot cake for my house
• be comfortable with what I’m doing and how I interact with people
• be better about my relationships with people
• apply to jobs and keep looking for more options

I’d rather not:

• make a power point for articles that no one cares to read
• study for a genetics exam I’ll probably still do poorly on
• write a review article for genetics or another essay 
• be in the library
• procrastinate
• be so cynical

I’m exhausted from an uneven balance of being so fucking tired of feeling lonely the majority of the time or not feeling anything.

• When a job description starts with “Experience your America,” I’m reminded that I’m looking for research tech positions on a government driven website.
• I’m attracted to anything that states “uncomfortable conditions,” “must be comfortable riding a horse* or ATV, if conditions require,” “camping excursions may be necessary” and “hiking.”
• Really I just want a job that allows me to derp around in the woods for three months to a year and actually work with my hands for a while. 
• I considered applying to a tech job in Chicago that consisted of monitoring and euthanizing raccoons to save a turtle population (rabies shot required). Desperate times…desperate measures.
• After today’s Genetics exam, that field might be ruled out in my head for a little while.
• Job searching should be a class.

* I don’t know anything about riding a horse.