May 2013
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mewtoot:
i think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy
because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless
and they don’t want anybody else to feel like that
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Things I do to myself that I dislike
Get anxious about asking for help, and then never do, and then end up realizing that I was being stupid and really how hard is it to send an email desperately asking for a job?
Procrastinate
Over think everything
Let myself become invested in things that are likely temporary
Feeling like my ideas of doing something independent and worthwhile are silly and insane and doubting myself.
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sappy shit.
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I got my first job offer for a volunteer position out in Yosemite National Park tracking chipmunks and while I’m happy about it I”m also scared shitless at the prospect of being so far away and so in the middle of no where. And so, I don’t know what to do.
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Engineering the $325,000 Burger →
A researcher in the Netherlands wants to show the world — including potential donors — that in-vitro meat is a reality.
Nature of the Origin: There’s just these tiring... →
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There’s just these tiring days full of small disappointments more rejection than satisfaction and all I’d like to do is feel secure. No one is holding my hand right now but I’d at least like to know that the people I love love me back and that trust is a two way street and that I don’t have to…
Rebloggin mylself.
“Of all the words of mice and men, the saddest are ‘It might have been.’”
– Kurt Vonnegut, Cat’s Cradle
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“Live to the point of tears.”
– Albert Camus
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Good things
I ran a half marathon in under two hours (almost barfed at the end).
Presented my SIP and actually felt good about it (I never feel good about presentations).
I have two job interviews tomorrow, one for a field job at Yosemite.
Bad things
One of those jobs is a volunteer position and the other has a mandatory May start date.
I don’t know where I’m living in about two...
These 34 Chris Traeger-isms Are Literally The... →
Best.
Aaand the timing is always off.
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Listen
April 2013
45 posts
Feelin like awkwardness.
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It’s always the weekends that are the nicest out that I have the most to do. Can’t believe it’s already fifth week and that whole SIP presentation thing is coming up in one week exactly to the hour. Horribleness.
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This past week has been a lot of feeling too overwhelmed about the upcoming future and Biology Diebold SIP symposium for me to actually do anything about it. So it goes.
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Let me become obsessed with something so intrigued that I can’t let it go, so compelled by curiosity that I won’t stop searching and learning until I feel complete.
Let me know what it is like to be overwhelmed with an idea, a subject, a field or a method; not overwhelmed in the sense of feeling like giving up but so overwhelmed by the expanse of a thing that I don’t know where...
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Cancer Centers Racing to Map Patients’ Genes →
Hospitals are spending heavily to develop “precision medicine” treatments for cancer based on the special, even unique characteristics of the patient’s genes.
An interesting article on the rush to use genome and cancer cell sequencing in order to provide clues to new forms of treatment focus.
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Heaven Go Easy on Me - The Head and the Heart
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Well, today I managed to run 12 miles after a rough couple days of getting some huge allergic skin reaction to something from running in a downpour on Wednesday (I thought I was being dedicated), one trip to the emergency room because I didn’t have the patience to deal with swollen ankles and itchy skin allover, and some steriod pills which I guess are normal but make me pale as a ghost....
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What’s happened to the art of active listening? Attached to technology like its got its own soul I’m not exempt from meandering through sites and checking my email constantly, instant realizations of another job filled with someone besides myself but honestly I’d love to throw my phone in a pond and give it up.
And what’s happened to the art of patience and calculation?...
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I am becoming an awkward recluse again. You would think after four years that would’ve gone away.
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These feet These feet I’ve run into the ground over and over. As I child, my bare feet were rough against the scratching hay and the dirt and rock driveway. These feet today carry me the miles I force them to go, even blistered and sore; the tips of my narrow toes have become tougher with the miles and have taught me that strength doesn’t always result in beauty.
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Farmrun: Bennett, On Culture →
farmrun:
This is a bit of a throwback to the days of trampish yore. When I farmran across the country in 2010, I made a point to omit entirely declarations of any kind of final, comprehensive project, mostly in the name of productivity and distribution.
That looked like lots of short, raw…
A really brief but interesting and enlightening spoof on the art of agriculture and how...
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Juniperus
farmrun:
Color me smitten with the oft austere simplicity of these old botanical illustrations, over and through which I’ve been poring.
I do believe I’d like to post a handful of my other favorites from the history drawing plants. But you know what they say about good intentions.
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How to train for a half marathon in less than a...
Step 1: Realize you’re an idiot.
Step 2: Go run. Now. You’re already behind. So suck it up and go.
Step 3: Realize you’re an idiot.
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Quotes from my resume (when applying to a farm)
“Helped out on my family’s farm since I was old enough to carry a bucket of grain to feed the animals.”
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Job applications take so stupidly long.
